Sadness

I'm feeling so sad. I need to get it out. No quote today.

Sometimes I feel like my life at home is just a dream. It makes me feel crazy that I can come back here and it's like nothing ever happened for real. I feel so much cognitive dissonance because I love school, I love learning, I love teaching, and I love being a senior. I hate leaving J and my family, and I'm so stressed out with all the work I have to do.

I worry about everything, and I don't want to miss out on anything. I'm spreading myself too thin. This sucks. I want to be in the real world with J in chicago right now, and yet, I never want senior year to end. I guess I just have to take it one day at a time. I just don't want to regret anything. I wish I could freeze time and have everything.

Not So Original

Hmm. It's been longer than I hoped. Here are some lyrics that were a real pick-me-up from the song "Lost" by Michael Bublé:
Life can show no mercy. It can tear your soul apart. It can make you feel like you've gone crazy but you're not. Things have seemed to change. There's one thing that's still the same: In my heart you have remained and we can fly fly fly away. 'Cause you are not alone and I am there with you. And we'll get lost together until the light comes pouring through.

I found out today that there is a song called "Sweet Serendipity" and I thought I would have to change my blog name because I wouldn't like it. Turns out I do like it, and I guess the name can stay. It's a shame though...I thought I was being so creative!

Things I'm thinking about today:

• I need to look up those last psych classes!
• I'm excited about my felt tree in the preschool! Everyone seems really into it, and I need to remember to take more pictures.
• I should start writing songs. Maybe poems in iambic pentameter that J can put to music? I think that would be fun.
• On that note, DESTYNE the musical is totally going to happen :)

Thats all for tonight. Tired. Trying to do yoga in the morning.